So Mysterious

Was cleaning up my living room yesterday. Rearranging things to better suit my current needs. And I discovered a journal from my distant past. I had begun it in 1978 when I was taking a raft trip down the Colorado River through the Grand Canyon. And I was passing though a rather unsettled part of my life at the same time. Then abruptly those pages ended and it picked up again in 1986 with the dying of my father.

The journal pages are never filled completely but that they contain these two pivotal parts of my life is interesting. I have journaled a great deal of my life but between 1978 and 1986 evidently not at all. Thinking upon that and the poems I wrote at both times led to the poem below.

So Mysterious

Thirty years ago
I was passing through
The Grand Canyon
On crests of rapids
and emotions
Writing poems
About my confusion
Life
Such a mystery
Canyons
So mysterious

Twenty plus years ago
I was riding the crests of despair
Mourning
The passing of a parent
Seeing the world through newfound sobriety
And again writing poems
About my confusion
Life
Such a mystery
Death
So mysterious

Ten years ago
My life was all prose
I had it all figured out
From marriage
To divorce decrees
Life
Death
So simple

Now
I am again writing poetry
Life
a mystery
Its passage
So mysterious

(c) Jacqui Binford-Bell